Photography

so yeah another positive note ive started doing photography and edits
take a look

Friday

This is like my last week of peace before new year
i have so much going on
and today my backstabbing best friend things im the backstaber thanks cw thanks alot.(bitch)
but in good news
i only have 1 lesson on monday due to drama and cervical cancer jab (ITS MY LAST ONE)
so yayy.
and i've been off all week so its not a bad start reallyyy.
and on friday i'm in london which im quite excited about.


i miss the people who i was once close to
la, ab,rc,cw,am,kc. I MISS YOU.

Isnt it amazing

i'm quite shocked really
how just because i put a tiny little bit of make-up on.
suddenly
the plastics take intrest
things like that annoy me
they really do.
it aggrivates me alot.
but hey ho.
only 4 days left in school
and london in 8 days,.

New Hair!

Being Ill An All Mother Dearest decided to get my hair done to make me feel better
the results
i like it personally!
but it will take time getting used to
long hair an all.
x♥x

on a good note.

Me and my mum put our christmas tree up Earlier. pictures will follow, i promise you.
andddddd. im getting my hair extensions on friday,
but job wise? still no luck? i dont effing get it.
im 16 in 5 months and they still wont let me friggin work?
whats a girl without money to do....
but oh well
im saving up for something worth while (:
how adorable are they?
only £499.50 pence left til micropig (: (:

I Miss The Times

When i ran home to talk to you online.

the times when we had phonecalls about nothing which would last forever

i miss one of the greatest friends i've had, and i know you used and abused me

ive been told that by everyone, but i sometimes just miss you so much id go and scan the photos

i wonder why you ever left, you blamed it on me when you left, remember? i know i do.

but now your with him,

and he changes you, like REALLY changes you.

when your with him, i wonder who you put the act on for? him or me?

i know that i annoyed you endless ammount of times, but thats what happens, you know that

more than anyone.

and one by one, when you left me, everyone else did. so much so to the fact now

i can comfortably say, im on my own. you completely abondoned ship.

i listen to all the songs we used to dance around crazily too,

and watch the films we watched when they just came out

you hurt me so bad, what you said about me, what you done to me

people tell me to forget you, that your not a good friend and to steer clear

but i can't! what don't you understand

i miss those times
i miss those places
but most of all
out of anything ever
i miss you :( x

Life.

Don't you hate it when you realise when your not wanted?
when you don't fit in but your never really 100% why
because you dress different? look different? laugh at different things?
i sometimes seem to forget the social Hierarchy.
i didn't realise how vicious and vindictive those above you can be.
well that was until i hit earth again with a thud when it came to friends,
and how easily someone so close to you can turn away from you. cw.

and those close to you talking about you constantly giggling away,
call me a paranoid bitch all you want, I'm not a thick shit.

but honestly, when the people you hate most can tell you the truth, you know some serious shits gone wrong somewhere. so here i am complaining about my problems when i should be fixing them right? wrong. i can't fix them its gone way way way beyond fixing point now, i tihnk rather than forgiveness, this problem leads to one solution, revenge.



so whats gone right in my life so far this holiday?
uhmmmm.....nothing.